Pantematico
Amargo el ron y mi antipática simpatía.
In front of my window there is a tree
dry, pale, stunted, evergreen
of a blushing green in a gloomy
and mourning atmosphere.
I was born old,
tired and different,
It's not that I feel old,
I've always been old
I was born with longing,
with sleeplessness
like a plucked clover for luck
like hay or moss growing between the branches
rotting everything in sterile dampness
I was born old and had no childhood.
I'm just a fungus in the devil's groin
blackened skin and sudden itching,
I'm not even good at saying what I feel
ripped from the womb
without more than a life,
a death that is postponed
and a million memories.
I don't want to move,
it doesn't matter what for
always have to move even if nothing is done,
disgusting insects crawl up my bed
they dirty my sheets and meander in a thousand bodies
squeezing and suffocating my memories,
because when I was born old
I only have that.
Why if I am nothing, I feel everything?
a cynical grimace smile is drawn
on my face healed of scars and wrinkles,
if my beginning was already an end since then,
and death the only medicine
I have left
accepting everything
with a lot of rum.
why do I keep moving?
dry, pale, stunted, evergreen
of a blushing green in a gloomy
and mourning atmosphere.
I was born old,
tired and different,
It's not that I feel old,
I've always been old
I was born with longing,
with sleeplessness
like a plucked clover for luck
like hay or moss growing between the branches
rotting everything in sterile dampness
I was born old and had no childhood.
I'm just a fungus in the devil's groin
blackened skin and sudden itching,
I'm not even good at saying what I feel
ripped from the womb
without more than a life,
a death that is postponed
and a million memories.
I don't want to move,
it doesn't matter what for
always have to move even if nothing is done,
disgusting insects crawl up my bed
they dirty my sheets and meander in a thousand bodies
squeezing and suffocating my memories,
because when I was born old
I only have that.
Why if I am nothing, I feel everything?
a cynical grimace smile is drawn
on my face healed of scars and wrinkles,
if my beginning was already an end since then,
and death the only medicine
I have left
accepting everything
with a lot of rum.
why do I keep moving?