Despite- a pesar de.

Despite the constant stress of growing up poor and its financial pressures, I kept rich memories. I realize, though, that I am not supposed to be a writer, but let me tell you something, that's life. Of course, is not likely I will ever be a committed writer, that's not important, but what it is, though, is that my feelings paid for each word right here, right now..

Así que con el permiso de la concurrencia, en veces he cambiado de parecer, pero en mis sentimientos, nunca. Es más, desde que empecé a escribir he desarrollado mejor sentir por los distintos que la vida es y, a la vez, nunca he negado las creencias con que nací.

Since I am unable to write poetry in this language, I will then express my irritation, no because it is perplex, but for not being as romantic. Of course it is me, nonetheless, it is such a great feeling to gather what you are reading and the power it sends to the bilingual soul I have become.

No creo sea sólo yo quien tenga que describir lo que antes fui o pensé, o el que con imaginaciones retenga los ansiosos recuerdos que para siempre se quieren ir. Si me veo como antes fui, pues, crecí con oraciones, anhelos, trabajos, pruebas y naufragios espirituales.

I hope you like the writings, if not, just skip them, even though I know you are following me. I hope you think I have changed, because I have not. I hope you are happy, of course, I doubt you are. I enjoy myself more than anyone else because, the other me, - the one who knew two English words then,-yes and bye- now writes more than twenty at a time.

Nada de vagos anhelos, sé que nunca podré prenderle palabras a todo el vivir, pero adentros de mi ser, todo puedo ser.

Fidel Guerra,
United States,
Junio, 2017.