oh gosh

I know nobody gives a damn
about whether I felt in love or not and
It’s not like I give a shit if anyone does anyway.

I know all that shit
about being in love and
I can deal with it, but, you see,
I sit and try to write some great thoughts
then that....comes to mind and fucks it all up.

Honestly,
I don’t really know If I fall in love or if it’s just
the feeling of being utterly romantic as no one else could be.

I’m here tonight by a virtual fire,
all alone and listening to Rigo Tovar,
drunk of the past, lost in the future and
unaware that this present scribble is finally done. Oh gosh.!!

Smiling Fidel. Oregon. September, 2021.

 

fool

 

I know. I write and write and she does not return
my fucking letters. So, yes Sr. I'm the biggest fool.

Fidel.